Happy Birthday to You!!!

Today is October 2, 2013 and it would have been my mother’s 60th birthday. I imagine if she was here, we would have planned a big celebration for her. But she’s not…

In two weeks, on the 17th, will be the 2 year anniversary of her death.  I wish those dates weren’t so close…but they are.

I miss her and as I started to write this post earlier, looking for pictures to add, I realized how much more it hurts when I see her face, her smile, and my mind brings back memories of her voice…oh here i go again…tearing up…

Anyhoo,…(I’m such a crybaby)…but although I miss her and every year this month will be full of sorrow and remembrance, there is still joy.

There is joy because every time I think about her passing, I think about how her death helped save my life…my soul.

So today, I cooked her dinner to celebrate her life because I am forever thankful to have a mother who cared so much about me to tell me that God still loved me regardless how many times I ignored her and pushed her away.

So as my family gathers over pork chops with fried apples, squash and zucchini, homemade red mashed potatoes and buttermilk biscuits, (yeah I can throw down! forget healthy, this is southern loving tho! lol) we will sit and laugh and maybe even sing Happy Birthday ( I doubt it tho, that’s kinda morbid on second thought) But we will forever be thankful for the years we had with this wonderful woman of God.

Happy Birthday to You!… I’ll see you again…