Sometimes I wish I could just find the remote control to my life and press reset. I wouldn’t change everything, but I know some things that would!
Like what? If you’ve read my blog before, you know the majority of my problems. But I don’t care if you’re tired of me expressing this…sometimes you have to vent about them over and over again…until you muster up the courage to shift…and stay shifting.
So here I go again. I’m questioning my value. I’m questioning if I can do all that God has placed in my life. Just the visions and dreams alone continue to weigh me down. I’m questioning if I will always be the talented girl…who never rises to the expectations.
Whenever I get like this, I realize that I’ve been doing a horrible job of taking my cares to the Lord. Instead, I’ve rested them on my shoulders…trying to figure everything out.
I allow God to handle the SUPER BIG stuff. Like stuff I won’t even go into details about- but things I know I couldn’t get through if it wasn’t for Him. Those triumphs bring me so much joy! And then it fades as the days go by…
For some reason, the everyday things are the trickiest things for me to let go of. I can’t seem to be consistent in relying on God for every detail…even the smallest, minute things. Yet, I have a desire to not carry those burdens either. So here I am. BURNTOUT. AGAIN.
The only thing I know how to do is start over. Like detox. Soul. Mind. Body. I need my fuel. My bread. My water. It’s the only thing I know to do. The only thing that can sustain me. Otherwise, I die.
So I’ve decided to get into my word more consistently. That has been a goal of mine FOREVER, but everything else seems to get in the way- DISTRACTED MUCH!?!? Yep! So instead of making it an intent, it’s an action. I’m going to study the word. Meditating on it day and night.
That’s it. I know there is so much I could share, but I don’t want to do that from an empty place. So look for a wedding recap (and other posts) later…much later lol.
I implore you, if you don’t know Jesus Christ as your personal savior… please accept him. He’s the only true hope in this world. Allow Him to press RESET. He’s done it for me…over and over again…